Lost Generation.

All that is Christmas Cuteness..

Spawn o' Satan.. (no not the hockey player)

She may look all sweet and innocent.. but unfortunately for me Karma didn't quite work in my favor with her. Funny, being that she came from the breeder with the name "Angel".. Wishful thinking on their part I guess.. ;)

Hot Chick Discount.

The other night I went out for dinner with a girlfriend.. It's been a long while since I have been out to eat, as I have been on a strict training diet for what seems like the last 50 years... We decide to go to one of my absolute fav spots, which turns out my gf has never been to before.

We get there.. Find rockstar parking.. Order up some drinks and a few different super yummy dishes.. Our service is amazing.. You know when you get a waitress who is totally normal and down to earth and doesn't put on an annoying fake "I love my job, tip me good" show and is just sincere and nice... well that's the girl we got..plus she had some great ink and was super cute, so she got bonus points for style in my books..

Our food was incredible... and our tummies are really full.. when our rockstar waitress asks us about dessert. We talk about the wicked desserts they have there.. one being the must have deep fried mars bar with chocolate syrup, ice cream, and whip cream.. yes. Heaven. But we decide against it because we are apparently too full..

Five minutes later, over comes our waitress.. with a deep fried mars bar dish in hand... for us to share, on the house! Because we are no fools, obviously we eat it... and love every bite and somehow seem to forget that we were full only moments before.. at this point my gf is dying and can't believe she has never been to this place before.. I am happy.. full of sushi, deep fried chocolatey goodness with ice cream, and gin.. And I am in the company of one of my most adored beautiful friends.. It couldn't have been better.. until our bill came.

This wasn't any ordinary bill, our bill was special.. You are probably wondering how can a bill be special, but let me tell you it was... At the bottom of our bill was a discount.. it wasn't much, I think maybe 5%.. but what it was called completely made my night.. We had received a "Hot Chick Discount" on our dinner and drinks!! Hilarious..

The owner of this place certainly knows how to keep the ladies coming back for more.. Hire awesome nice waitresses, have the best sushi in town (bar none), serve up free dessert straight from Heaven, and then give you a discount for being hot..

Now that is my kind of place!

Smiles guaranteed or your money back!

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Our Backyard

Check out Sweatshop Union's new music video.. It was shot here in the streets of Gastown... Not bad for some local kids.

When I grow up....

Unbelievable cuteness.

Think about it.

Ode to Emily..

Next week will mark a very sad time in Vancouver's history.. Ok, well maybe more so in my history.. but grief as an entire city just sounded more dramatic. The blonde bombshell duo will be no longer intact.. Our superhero forces soon separated by many provinces..

This coming Friday I will be saying "so long" to my always trusty sidekick and fellow mischief maker- Miss Emily "Ninja Boot" Buller... The poor poor soul who has seen more of my white ass than she probably ever cared to see, or to take pictures of!! Love you Em!!! 

So to tribute the going away of my dear friend.. Here are just a few shots of us at some of our most debaucherous moments.. There are too many crazy memories to share!

     

Good times my friend, good times.... I will miss you oh so mucho!

We really knew no other way than the most extreme debauchery, didn't we?!

Au revoir my dear Ninja Boot.. You will forever be my favorite squirrelly sidekick!

Until next time.... xox

SNL rocks my world.

No explanation necessary...  

Twelve days of crazy..

So I turn on my tv today and am completely horrified by what is on.... A freaking Christmas episode of that horrendous Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency show.. Last time I checked, it was only October... wasn't it??  Now, it wouldn't be soooo bad if it were a Christmas re-run of Oprah or Ellen.. But seriously I feel the uncontrollable urge to vomit at the sheer sound of Janice Dickinson's voice.. She is a total monster, and honestly is starting to resemble one with all of the plastic surgery and botox she has undergone... It's a wonder she's been able to achieve any sort of reputable model agency status being that she is a total lunatic!!  I give her props for being able to out-do our dear Tyra!

Now if you can stomach it, here is a music video.. Yes that's right, Janice Dickinson's own rendition of the Twelve Days of Christmas.. 

Or as it should more appropriately be named- Twelve Days of Insane Dysfunction.

Enjoy :)

Life's little lessons...

I'm one of those people who is guilty of constantly over analyzing decisions and situations to the death.. I mean I drive myself crazy half the time being so incredibly indecisive and always trying to understand why something is the way it is, I can't even imagine how much it irritates other people.. I am so sorry!! Usually every decision I make has to go through like a 5 step approval process before I will actually go ahead with it... Well.. all decisions that is which don't involve money for some reason.. I am a total impulse buyer.. No decision necessary, if I want it I get it... Unless it's something I really want but cannot afford, then I will plot and scheme a way to get it.. I always do, it's like I have magical powers or something.. 

Lately I've been doing the whole life analyzing bit.. Well, more like life observing I guess.. I'm going through a few major changes at this current time, and for once I'm not entirely focused on worrying if what I am doing with myself is the right thing.. I'm just sort of letting it play itself out.. I find it kind of odd, that when choosing the color of the new car I was buying I probably consulted at least 6 to 10 different people's opinions on the color I liked before I decided to actually go with it.. And the color was a shade of white, and technically isn't even a real color..but whatever... So then it comes to some decisions I am facing right now which are more so, lets say.. life altering.. And I am for once just kinda goin with the flow... 

Now anyone reading this who knows me, knows that this goin with the flow thing is slightly unusual for me... I have been known to be a total stress case from time to time.. And usually always over things of which I have no control... Might be because I am a Leo.. or maybe because I am a type D personality (according to that Myers Briggs personality type test thingy).. Or it's just because I am a controlling beeotch with a mild case of OCD.. But I feel that none of those are the case right now... I am suddenly seeing things a whole lot differently than ever before... I have made many steps in the past year to change the focus of my life.. To learn to live more simply and to enjoy some of the smaller more fulfilling things life has to offer... To make more of an effort to show other people what they mean to me and how they have an effect on my life... To slow down and appreciate my accomplishments to date.. And at the same time, not slow down enough that I become bored and then in turn over analyze things even more so.. The key really is to find that certain balance between go time, play time, and down time.. And looking back on past years, I'd been approaching things in an entirely wrong way.. Well not entirely, but certainly not as beneficially as I could have been...

I find it so amazing how certain people can enter your life, or even exit for that matter at the most appropriate of times.. I have had the pleasure of a few people coming into my life who have been the most incredible influences on me... I have been motivated beyond belief, and given that extra boost I needed to tackle some really huge goals for myself.. These people know who they are, and they mean the world to me.. I really feel like I have been blessed and given this new opportunity to re-create my entire world.. And it certainly is a refreshing awareness which I am extremely grateful for..

Over the next few months many more changes will be taking place in my world... At first encounter with them I was pretty disheartened by what I was going to be up against.. And I was having a really hard time seeing the reason why these things were happening... But I have now gotten over the initial shock and have learned to embrace the potential they have to teach me... Strength, deeper intuition, humbleness, grace, and so forth.. They truly are opportunities for me to use and grow from.. I cannot stress enough what the importance of patience has taught me.. If you let things sit long enough, you will eventually learn why they are, what you can take away from them, and how you can apply these new teachings to your life and help others to as well.. So after all these years of over thinking and worrying about things I have no control over, I have just started to let them go.. And what I've learned from this is that letting go is the farthest thing from giving up.

Tracks on Repeat.

Like A Boy- Ciara

My Life- The Game feat Lil Weezy

Good Girl Gone Bad- Rihanna

Sex on Fire- Kings Of Leon

Love Lockdown (Remix)- Kanye

Live Your Life- T.I feat Rihanna

And yes I will admit it, I do indeed dig a Nickelback track.... There.. I said it.. 

I AM NOT a Nickelback fan whatsoever, but in my heart I felt it was right to recognize the fact they put out a song that is actually pretty good for once and isn't like any of the other last 50 that have all sound exactly the same over the past 5 years.. 

Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback

Now if somehow CK could figure out a way to not be Canada's ugliest mofo, they'd be almost like a real rock band.. Anyone know his email? Maybe I could pass on the name of my hair stylist and plastic surgeon... jk ;)

WTF Levi's?

Someone at work sent me this site today.. I don't really understand what the hell they are trying to advertise with a bunch of random things jumping out of the crotch of a pair of jeans and babbling some nonsense to you about anything but pants.. But whatever.. its creative.. and entertaining nonetheless.. 

Enjoy!

The things I subject myself to..

Earlier this year I was asked to participate in a little production at work which was going to be used as BodogTV's April Fools Joke.. Since the company is pretty much going under right now and we are all on 'working notice' aka laid off, we are all busy updating our portfolios and going through old projects.. I stumbled upon this one.. It's definitely good for a few laughs, at me that is!

Here was the show's trailer...

And the bloopers...

It took about 5 months for dozens of people at work to stop greeting me screaming "ICE CREAM SANDWICHHHHH!!"

Oh the humility.. There are some things at Bodog I will not miss.

No One.. No One.. Does it better than you, Miss Alicia Keys..

Wow... I'd been waiting many years for the opportunity to see Alicia Keys in concert.. 

And last night it finally happened!  

12th row floor at the Orpheum Theatre. Amazing.

Now, I know there are a few haters out there at the moment thinking AK is a man stealer and all.. You know, I mean the whole Swizz Beatz thing.. Whatever.. Do what you gotta do girl..If ya did it who cares.. and if you didn't well even better cause you are young and famous and fabulous and can get any man wayyy better than that fool... But I ain't gunna hold it against ya.. You do yer thang.. Whoever it may be..

As for the show, Miss Alicia threw it down last night.. I mean seriously.. The girl...can sing! And play the piano.. Damn can she ever play the piano... The only thing negative I have to say about her performance... Oh my gosh, please woman take some dance lessons.. Your dancing.. is not so smooth. Those choreographed dance routines with your back up singers- straight outta Dream Girls... Why? It wasn't even cool in the movie..  Oh wait, and you attempting to dance all sexy-like with that black handkerchief.  That was probably the worst seducing I've ever seen in my life! BUT because you are so freakin amazing to listen to, I am willing to cut you a deal.. I will completely disregard your poor dancing abilities for the simple promise that next time I see you.. you ain't gunna be doin none of that awful white girl booty shakin again, ok. Now do we have ourselves a deal?

You see I love music.. I live for it.. I believe this world would be a really hateful, horrible place without it... I love music that's raw and emotional and really draws from it's original roots.. And Alicia seems to know how to perfectly blend and incorporate this into her sound... I'm not sure how, but she does it and she does it well.. I don't have much more to say about her performance other than I really freaking loved it and I wished it weren't over so quickly.. I'm sure you've all seen her perform live on TV on music award shows and such.. So just imagine how amazing witnessing her perform for an hour and a half live from like 15 feet away would be.. That's right, Incredible.

Top 20 Reasons Why You Probably Sleep Solo...

So I've been doing a bit of people watching lately... And I thought I would attempt to help some of you guys by compiling a top 20 list of my observations as to why I believe you very likely are single, despite your best efforts.. 

1.  You walk around wearing Affliction, Christian Audigier, and Ed Hardy shirts thinking you are incredibly hardcore and original.. but being a guy, you don't even realize 4 other guys around you are wearing the exact same thing.. and did you notice the only girls who are trying to pick you up are strippers, because they are gold digging little whores who know if you spent $200 on a t-shirt, then you will likely eventually pay to get their lips, boobs, or nose done.. but if thats all you are looking for, well then.. congratulations, I guess.

2.  You are the epitome of douche-baggery.  If you don't know what that means, well then you definitely are a douche bag.

3.  You are over 30 years old and live at home still.. And not for any good reason, other than the fact you are a lazy, free-loading, SOB with no life ambitions.  So, oh so sexy.

4.  You smoke.  And not just when you drink, but all the time.  Sorry, that is gross...

5.  You have poor hygiene. (ie. bad teeth, breath, skin, nails, nose hair, ear hair, chest hair.. Yuck!)

6.  You haven't worked out in a very long time, and it's quite noticeably apparent.

7.  You are a ridiculous drunk.  

8.  You're friends are ridiculous drunks, or just straight up ridiculous and perverted.

9.  You think it's cool to brag the next day about how hung over you are, how drunk you were, etc... WE DON'T CARE!

10.  You don't drive, or you do drive but it is illegally because you have actually lost your license from a DUI and/or speeding tickets..

11.  You laugh at your own jokes.. and you are the only one laughing.

12.  You think the bar is a wicked place to pick up.

13.  You are still technically married.

14.  You have children that you don't even take care of, or you lie about not having any at all.

15.  You are homophobic.  Seriously, get over yourself.  Not every gay man wants you, and in fact no gay men probably even want you considering their standards are often higher than straight women's!

16.  You think flowers are necessary only when you do something wrong.

17.  You still think eyes are located on breasts.  

18.  You believe winking is sexy.

19.  Your idea of a romantic gesture is making someone a mix cd of club anthems..

And last but not least... 

20.  You carry a Murse.. aka Man Purse.  For the love of god, please just don't.  What the hell are you carrying in there anyways- tampons and lipgloss? 

Fella's... if any of the above has applied to you in any way, do yourself and us ladies a favor and read a copy of Cosmopolitan magazine.. Go ask your sister or mom to borrow theirs!! Please, we are begging you!

Who ever said geeks don't got game?

Recently came across these 3 geeky gamer type guys.. I guess they're known as this group called Tripod and actually go on tour performing comedy-type shows.. 

This song's pretty funny.. Check it...Tripod

Aids Walk For Life

On Sunday, September 21st I'll be taking part in this year's Aids Walk for Life. It's a 10 km walk around Stanley Park's seawall or a 2.5 km walk around Lost Lagoon. All of the money raised for the event is used to help British Columbians infected with HIV/Aids and their families.  

This particular issue hits home for my family and I.  We lost a loved one to an Aids related illness 15 years ago.  A cure needs to be developed so hundreds of families in Canada do not have to lose someone they love each year.

Do your part and help by making a donation on my fundraising page, or better yet register for the event and participate in the walk as well!

For more information regarding the event please visit www.bcpwa.org

I also encourage you to take a look at the Canadian Association For Aids Research website. You'll likely be shocked to learn the statistics regarding the number of Canadians affected by this disease. Tens of thousands of people in the world die everyday from HIV/Aids, and it's time we help put a stop to it.  www.canfar.ca

Supernatural somethin or another..

Incredible doesn't even begin to describe what was witnessed this evening.  I have to argue when Carlos Santana named one of his album titles "Supernatural", he was most certainly being a modest man.  This was my second time seeing Santana, both times have been with my Dad. Santana has to be up in his list of top all-time artists along with Jimi Hendrix, John Lee Hooker, Eric Clapton (who's show we also went to see together), Buddy Guy, Led Zeppelin, and Stevie Ray Vaughn.  Tonight's performance was unreal.  I find it so amazing a man now in his 60's is able to put on just as high energy of a show as he did 30 years ago.  I've seen some footage.. It's true, he hasn't slowed down one bit.

What's truly inspiring is how he stands for so much more than the magical music he creates with that guitar of his. He is a visionary artist and a huge advocate for world peace. He shows great pride and appreciation of the power every person has within them and makes a solid effort to communicate this to his fans.  He wants to empower everyone at his shows to recognize this in themselves and to use it, creating unity in the world we share.  He paused the show a couple times last night to speak of some things he believes our world could use more of.. what we as people of this earth should remember to stand for each day.. Serenity, sincerity, peace, and compassion in everything we put our minds to and how we treat one another.

Looking around the stands, I couldn't help but notice such a vast array of people in attendance. The entire Spanish community of British Columbia must have been there, but there were a few other characters I was a bit surprised to see.  The guy sitting next to me looked like he just walked out of an H.A. Clubhouse, tattooed from neck to fingers.. There were also a lot of grey hairs there, understandable being that his music became famous worldwide in the early 60's, even performing at Woodstock with Hendrix.  Some days I really wish I were 10 or 20 years older so I could have seen some of history's most talented artists play live.  Luckily, my Dad got to see almost all of the greats, so I get to hear all about his experiences from their shows..  Sometimes we'll sit in his basement and play old records, drink beer, and if I'm lucky a song will come on that reminds him of one time when he saw that particular band.   So cool, I live for those stories of his..

Anyways, as usual I digress... Did I mention the show was incredible?!  It really was! Perhaps even better than the first time I saw him about 4 or 5 years ago. Oh right, I can't forget about those definitely deserving honorable mentions.. I've gotta give a shout out to front row "crazy arms" Asian lady.. You are the best dancer I've ever seen, well almost as good as Seinfeld's  Elaine Benes... But let me tell you, you made paying those Ticketmaster service charges well worth it. Also I don't know which was more amazing, Carlos Santana or the super adorable 50-something year old lady in the black mini cocktail dress in the 2nd row rocking out hardcore on the "air keyboard".. Highlight of my year, I swear! I've seen some serious air guitar, air drums, etc.. But air keyboard, that was a must see.  I tried to take a picture of her for proof of this once in a lifetime phenomenon, but unfortunately it didn't turn out.  Annddd, I guess I should probably mention the ABSOLUTELY FREAKING OUT OF THIS WORLD almost 10 minute long drum solo.  Now this drummer had to be close to 300 lbs, but he blew Tommy Lee up.  Sorry Tommy, you are gorgeous and I love you and you are also an incredible drummer, but this guy gets my vote. Holy crap he was amazing. 

Overall, the show was outstanding! As was to be expected.. Carlos Santana is really such an extraordinary artist.. It's no wonder he can collaborate with pretty much anyone he wants. And his 12 piece band most definitely deserved to be up on that stage with him... I could have done without the opening act "The Salvador Santana Band". The Salvador guy couldn't sing and was pretty annoying acting all "thug like" but his keyboard playing was alright.  The best part of the entire night though was experiencing how Carlos Santana's music brings so many people from different walks of life together.. Including my Dad and I.. Music is one thing we have always strongly bonded over and share most in common.. And it was really nice to be able to spend the night in the company of my father, all while getting to watch together one of world music's great legends doin what he does best.. makin that guitar cry  ;)

Oh, self obsessed Tyra..

Even if you don't really want to admit it, it's ok, we already know you were watching the premiere of America's Next Top Model last night.  I am woman enough to admit it, I have been a loyal viewer since pretty much the first season..err..I mean, cycle.. 

Btw..Does anyone even know why it's called a cycle? Is it to recap and promote, "Watch yet another season of wayyyy too many skinny bitches pms-ing, living in one house, and competing for a career in professional narcissism"?  Yea, I bet that's probably why it's called a cycle..

Anyhow, I do love this show. And when I say love, I actually mean for 1 hour a week (or last night's case 2 hours) I become distracted from things I should be doing and get stuck staring slack-jawed at my tv screen as if it's just been in some horrific car wreck.. Usually this hour is highlighted by me doing some obscene name calling and yelling at Tyra through my television about how she is such an eff'n moron.  The cheese seriously just drips off that woman, I don't know how she can even stand herself.

Last night's show ended up being pretty good... Ok, "good" might be a bit of a strong word, but the episode was somewhat bearable after they stopped acting like robots and chasing after each other like wildlife in an attempt to model running "fiercely".  Seriously, wtf was that about.

All that aside, I really am proud of the little tranny girl..boy..whichever.. Isis.  Her pic turned out really great, and you would never have even known she was actually a he in the photo.  I'm happy to see our pop culture is starting to somewhat reflect the real people out there in the world.  Times have changed and sexual identity crisis or not, Isis is proving herself to be pretty damn "fierce".

The rest of the show was filled with a bunch of the other girls being afraid of the tranny and going out of their way to be mean to he/her.  At this point, I kinda stopped paying attention until it was time to tell the first girls of Cycle 11, "I'm sorry, but you are not going to be America's Next Top Model".  One of those girls being the bright Harvard grad that majored in American Literature.  Who when asked to show Tyra how certain famous characters or writers might pose, she had NO idea who Tyra was even talking about.  Way to go Harvard, maybe you could also offer a course in educational retention.   

God, I love this show.  It makes me feel far more intelligent than I give myself credit for... 

And now for pure entertainment's value, here is a clip of Tyra at more than likely her finest self obsessed moment.  It's always about you Tyra, always about you.  

Do you wanna be on top?? 

Umm. No, thanks.  I think I'll pass on the free ride to Tyra's crazy town.

Time to get serious now kids..

I drive in to work most mornings down Hastings Street into downtown Vancouver and it saddens me to see the things I do so early in the morning. Well any time of day it upsets me, but for whatever reason it does even more so in the morning.  It looks like a homeless flea market out there, except the only things for sale are stolen goods, drugs, and sex.

Every morning I see the same people.  Hanging around the same corners.

The homeless, mentally ill, and drug addicted.  Looking lost.  Hopeless.  Wandering or jumping into the middle of the streets, sometimes already looking for their next fix.  Although you really can't tell if they are still high from the night before, or if they have already woken up and taken a hit.  Nonetheless it's awful to realize this is all their lives have resorted to.  I don't know what is worse, the fact they have given up on themselves completely and have no regard for anyone because drugs have taken over all logic they may have possessed at some point or the mystery of what horrible things may have happened to them along life's way to allow themselves to believe they're not worth more than this lifestyle.

This morning I encountered a man who was out cold on the side walk on Richards at Cordova St.  And I mean he was out cold, I totally thought the guy was dead.  Now people, how effing heartless are you that you will literally walk RIGHT OVER TOP of a guy who appears motionless on the sidewalk at 10 in the morning????  WTF is wrong with you?  If the guy hadn't looked a bit scrubby and instead was wearing regular clothing or a business suit, you would have stopped to see if he was ok, wouldn't you???  But no, for whatever selfish reasonings you did not even bat an eye at this guy who for all you know could have been dead.

Now, I am a believer in most cases that yes, people are generally responsible for the decisions they make and where those decisions may end up taking them.  But there comes a point where it gets out of their control, and it is our responsibility as human beings to recognize these people need help and to do something to help them. Do anything.  Like for instance, at least taking 1 minute out of your day to call an ambulance to make sure this guy on the sidewalk isn't a goner.  But I guess everyone else had another emergency to tend to or something else far more important to do this morning, so don't worry I took care of it for you.  And incase you were wondering, the guy is alive, but would have died if he had remained unconscious for much longer according to the paramedics.  

I guess I don't understand how people think anymore.  If we just ignore them, will they eventually just disappear?  It's as if they believe drug addiction and overdose is another way of population control.  Like it's no big deal to let these people slowly kill themselves. But unlike the pipes and needles which rule most of their lives, these people are not disposable.  They are PEOPLE, you know, HUMAN BEINGS! And they deserve to be treated as humanely as you and I do. 

I think we all need to take some time to remember that like us, every single one of them out there is also someone's child.

So even if you have no desire to donate some of your time or money to a charity or send some old clothes to a shelter or church, at least promise me this- have enough decency to call an ambulance next time you see someone who may need medical attention.  You don't have to try to help them yourself and in fact I don't recommend it, but at least show 2 ounces of compassion and care for someone who needs it.  After all, you don't know what's happened unless you've walked in their shoes and you never know one day if or when it may be you who needs the help.

Karma is a bitch my friend. 

Noon is the new 9.

With recent changes to my job status, I've been doing a bit more thinking than usual.  I've come to a some conclusions which perhaps I was already slightly aware of, but maybe had not shared with others.

Here goes...

A)  I am NOT a morning person.  Despite my cheerful demeanor when I arrive to work, I would function much more willingly and efficiently if I were able to commence work at say... noon. And dressed in my pajamas or gym clothes. Thus allowing me to sleep in or run early morning errands whenever I felt like it.

B)  In the late I've gone a very random direction career-wise.  Just over a year ago I was working in a post production office for a Music label and TV shows, and somehow I've ended up a production manager for a design dept creating web ads for a gambling site?  And all within the same company.. I can't quite figure that one out.. especially being that my background and education lay in Event Production, Broadcast Journalism and Media Communications.. 

Hmm.?

C)  My next move will be as far away from online gaming as possible, as to never cross paths with it again even accidently.  Perhaps I should go work in a church or at a hospital or for a non profit organization, that would be the best way to handle that. Kidding.

D)  I have the attention span of an incredibly dumb puppy. Pretty much none at all. I can't focus long enough to read an email or to update a cover letter, but I sure can sit and type blogs for hours!!  Wait.. I guess that means, I can focus on things I want to do but don't give a shit about the things I should be doing.  Well.. I'm glad I cleared up that confusion.

E)  Oh.. and I am looking into a way to make money while I sleep.  I know there has to be a way, and I think I've almost figured it out.  I've always just seen those 6-8 hours I'm dead to the world as such a waste of time.  And time is money as they say.. Whoever "they" are...  So when I determine exactly how it is I will make cash to pay my bills as I peacefully slumber, I will let you know ;)

Now taking all into account I think it is apparent... I would be happiest working for myself.

Wind.

the brink of possibility... 

losing grip you sway this way and that, all the while struggling to maintain somewhat a graceful composure.. 

you breath in, in an attempt to regain balance..

the air holding the crispness of autumn nearing.. you are re-acquainted..  

breathing deeper you force your lungs to pull and stretch until they are screaming at you to exhale...

instead, you stop. you hold your breath. 

you are not ready to let go of that familiar scent.. that air you have come to know yet still seem to fear.. 

brought on by the wind.. never clear of it's direction..

the air of change.

One of Those Moments..

Today I was driving to go meet up with my trainer and I was behind this older blue van approaching  a traffic light in the middle of the highway. You know, the one on King George Hwy right before that little bridge thing on your way to White Rock.  That light.  Anyhow, the van pulled through the late yellow and I stopped at the red light.  And all of a sudden I had one of those "holy shit I totally forgot about that" memories....

When I was 15, my boyfriend at the time and I were driving to White Rock to go meet up with some friends.  He had just put insurance on his car that day.  I totally remember it was this 198o- something blue Skylark, so pimp..heh.  We were driving down that same part of the highway when a blue van EXACTLY the same as the one in front of me today, slammed on its brakes at that EXACT red light.  Unfortunately for us, that van didn't run the late yellow, it stopped dead. My bf didn't see it coming and we smashed right into the back of it!

Luckily no one was hurt, well nobody except my bf's pride.  He hadn't even had his car insured for half a day when he pretty much wrote it off with his gf in the passenger seat! Poor guy..

I remember him being so worried his mom would find out and get pissed at him, so he left his car for a few days at his friend's house and went all the way out to Chilliwack to find a new front end grill for the car before anyone noticed..  In the end it worked, for awhile, I think it was a few months until his mom actually found out about the accident.  Might have been because the replacement grill was a totally different color than the car was... At least he pulled it off for awhile.

Lessons learned, don't ever trust blue vans driving anywhere near you.  And don't even bother trying to lie to or hide anything from your mother, because she is your mother, and mothers are like female inspector gadgets and are way smarter than you think.. They ALWAYS eventually find out what really happened.  

Currently all things Awesome...

I got out of bed at 2pm today.. and there wasn't a damn thing wrong with it.

pink lilies. enuf said.

the return of Beverly Hills 90210.. (always a guilty pleasure..shh.)

The fact we actually got paid yesterday. (Fellow "Fivers" will know what I'm sayin.)

my dog is in a puppy beauty contest this weekend.. and she will win because she is the eff'n cutest dog ever in the whole wide world... Says me.

I've been laid off & put on working notice at my job, but am getting paid to find a new job and update my portfolio.. So sweet.

I am 10 weeks out from my next figure bodybuilding competition.. which might I add I plan to place top 3 in even if it kills me.

I'm looking forward to having a chicken-less diet in 10 weeks. 

In fact I think my diet will more than likely only contain the following food items:

ice cream

chocolate

fruit

ice cream

my grandma's perogies

yogurt 

granola

and oh right.. ice cream. ;)

It is Saturday and I still have 2 more days off before I go back to work.  Thank you United States Government for declaring Labor Day, the first Monday in September, as "a rest day for working citizens".  You kick ass...well sometimes.

And one of my cheap digs at my employer (who just laid us off) this week. Seen here.

That's all..

Yes. Hell froze over... and I created a blog.

Only yesterday I was having an IM convo about how pointless I believed blogs to be.  

How people go on incessant rants about the randomnest topics of which no one is truly interested in hearing about.  And yet today... I find myself having created my first very own blog.

 

You see, the reason I believed blogs were totally useless and more often than not highly irritating is because people just seem to bitch with NO intention or attempt to change anything about to what they are bitching. Nothing is gained by the reader other than being left with a lingering feeling of annoyance their time has been wasted by some mindless babbling moron. And since topics are generally blogged about after the fact, by the time it's read it's already old news my friend.

Well... I. Was. Wrong!  Yes, I'll admit it. I was very very wrong.

Clearly the only blogs I have ever read were written by absolute shit for brains, non-creative minded individuals.  After surfing the web (does anyone even say that anymore?) all evening for some sort of mind inspiring something, I stumbled across a friend's blog which I found to be extremely enlightening.  

My views on blogging have been changed for-EVER.   Some of the posts I read made me literally laugh out loud, some brought tears to my eyes, and some made me say "fuckin rights!".  They were all real, emotional, raw, meaningful, organized, creative thoughts.. and almost every one of them left me with something to think about.

Which brings me to this.  Whether this blog only ends up becoming my own personal form of self release and expression that nobody even reads, or it turns into something much bigger.. I vow not to fill it with useless bitching and raving about things never going to change or that we have no control over.

this is an opportunity for words to be what they are and used for whatever they need be... just in a very public format ;)